Five, four, three open sesame!

Happy New Year!!

I always feel great about starting the new year with a musical theater reference, and what better than with Rent. 2019 is here. Time to leave all that 2018 nonsense behind us and focus on the future. For me that means diving head first into my "career." I am officially a grown up, I have been for quite a few years now, but heading into 2019 I really started to feel it. I felt the shift in my attitude, in my thinking and in what I wanted to be and do. Am I any closer to figuring out all my answers, definitely not. I'm just as lost as I was before. But, I am actually aware of it now. Aware of time creeping up on me, aware of being an adult and having to be responsible, and being aware of what sort of lasting impression I want to leave on this world. Awareness is the mood for 2019 everybody!

So what does this all mean Nicole? Well my most famous words are "I don't know." And I really don't. I've always been a planner. I love making lists, and organizing. When I was little I liked going over to my friends houses and I'd clean their rooms. I was just never good at doing this for myself. If we were going on vacation I'd have my list of everything I needed to pack, places to go, things to see, food to eat. I had my assignments in on time in school, homework finished right away. But when it comes to something like what do I want to do, I was never really organized. I knew I wanted to be an actor, I wanted to sing for crowds and perform. But other than that I was unsure. That's still the goal. So 2019 let's deliver.

This first week in has proved pretty successful. An audition under my belt, a few submissions, recreating connections and contacts with people that I let slip away. And trying to be a lot more open to advice, criticism, and the truth. Trying to hold myself accountable by having notebooks always in my bag so when inspiration hits I'm ready. Listening to new cast recordings (yes this is a priority) that I hadn't listened to, to find new loves in the world I adore. In 2019 I'm just trying to be responsible for myself, for my own actions, my own success, my own failures, my own life. No one else has that control, so why not put it to its best use and make something of this responsibility?

With that I wish everyone a wonderful, healthy, adventurous, happy 2019. I hope we all take our own lives into our own hands. We all help each other out, make time for the people that are important in our lives. Make ourselves the best versions we can be. And have a great year. I can't wait to see what we all get up to!